Me & My Health #5 (Why I Don't Drink?)

I went round a friends house for pizza and catch up with friends and they were all drinking and a few know I don't drink but they don't know why?

I stayed round a family friend's house and they thought it was odd that I didn't drink but they don't know why?

Nobody know's why?

I thought I would explain why I don't drink or why I have reduce the amount of alcohol I drink so I only drink whilst I am at home with my parents, I have drank this year a few beers (yes, girls can drink beer). Prior to me deciding to do this "detox" I was never a heavy drinker, I worked in the hospitality industry when I first became an adult, I was around drink when I was younger (not in a negative or bad way), my parents allowed us to have the odd glass of wine and I feel like that's the reason why I am so respectful with alcohol and never got sh** faced. I would go for drinks after work with work colleagues and bits but never get drunk or lost control.

During the past few years I have lost control of my body and it scares me, I would faint without warning, I couldn't control the pain I was suffering with, I couldn't control the feeling of being fuzzy in the head but what I could control is not having a hangover or not getting drunk and not knowing what I was doing because medically I was struggling with the fear that I would regain consciousness in the middle of the street after collapsing and thank God every time I lost control I was at home. Working in a nightclub I would see people drink and get messy, I heard of people having really bad reactions to alcohol and sometimes it would be the drink didn't agree with them not the fact that they were drunk so I decided to give up alcohol.

I won't be giving it up completely but I will only drink on the odd occasion whilst I am around my parents because I can trust them to take care of me if I get ill which I hope they never have to but I feel safe around them.

I don't miss drink, I don't like many, can't stand gin or Malibu and some of the drinks I would drink just tasted of fruit juice so why not just drink juice, it's cheaper and healthier in some way.

I have never told anybody and I mean ANYBODY this fear of losing control and not being able to control my emotions as well as motions. I hope people understand and don't judge.